Jingle Bells

The bells may be ringing, but they don't soothe my broken heart.

My memories of you are red and raw, like my tired eyes today. I chose to let you go, but that choice cut right through me and left me broken. I know you will suffer no more, so I must take comfort in the pieces of our life.

You came to me when I needed you, wanted you and you never wavered. Always at my feet, or anywhere you could hear me, smell me; just to know I was there made you happy. It was your comfort and mine and love was our bond.

You were feisty, like me, and you took no bull from the others. You were a woman among men and you could handle yourself. I loved that about you. You licked and snorted and barked to let us know that you loved us no matter what. You protected us and today, I still feel your presence in the tears of your family. The pack mourns too.

You were here yesterday, but today you are gone and I still can't believe it. It's the strangest feeling. In a house full of people, there is an overwhelming emptiness.

My heart is broken.
Our hearts are all broken.

I hope you are at peace wherever you are and I hope you know that I loved you like my own, because you were my own. My girl. My baby girl, what will I do without you?

The bells are ringing because today you got your wings, but they don't soothe my broken heart.

Humble Pie

I had a large helping of humble pie today. While exercising this morning I was thinking about blog topics.

• I might have wanted to blog about tonight's finale of, "The Bachelor", but it seemed so minuscule and shallow when you think about the devastation in Japan.

• I might have wanted to blog about the Celtics finally winning a good one, but it didn't seem fitting, considering the tragedy in Japan.

• I'm totally into what is probably the WORST show on TV, "The Celebrity Apprentice" and I could have talked about last night's episode and how Lisa Rhinna got fired, and how in the boardroom the Donald told her how he loved her lips without the huge implants and how inappropriate it was. But I can't do that either because I can't get the images of the devastation caused by the earthquake and tsunami in Japan out of my head.

I want to talk about the amazing people who are helping the survivors and the care and compassion they are showing for complete strangers. How an American news crew who approached a group of now homeless Japanese people, sitting amongst the devastation of what used to be their homes, and were offering food from their precious rations to the Americans. The gesture was quite humbling.

It's all been quite humbling and from the comfort of my untouched home, with electricity, heat and water a plenty, I want to say I am in awe of the work that people are doing to help the people of Japan. I can do my part by donating money to The Red Cross, but not much else.

And I applaud you.

Because tomorrow the sun will rise again.